I had the BEST time last week! Honestly, I think it tops even Hillsong Conference.. like just the people I met there are THE most awesome bunch of people EVER. Much love to you all!!

Yeah the whole week was great... awesome food, awesome talks + bible studies, awesome people and... not-so-awesome study XP
I learnt that I can actually dribble a basketball, but don't ask me to shoot, because chances are I won't get it in...>.<
Had the best time getting to know people, and actually building up my confidence around people as well...
Met a bunch of people I feel that I am really blessed to be around, especially Dan. Not saying that the rest of you DIDN'T bless me with your fellowship, but I think we can all agree that Dan is just simply awesome - both as a person, and as a man of God. Am I right? =)

Sorry if this is really incoherent by the way... I don't tend to have much structure to my story-telling (terrible for evangelism, I tell ya)

So... HIGHLIGHTS OF CAMP...

The Proposals
How good were the proposals?!... Congrats boys, you did a damn good job... go to Val's blog to see some choice videos of the best ones... loved Dan's one... how well did he pull that one off? The two Jonos as well... hi-larious

A massive thank-you to Derek as well, who begged my "father" Dan, the mafia don, to be able to go to the semi-formal with me...and then under threat of death, whips out his guitar and sings me an altered version of the song Wonderwall. Gosh, the coincidence that it happens to be one of my all-time favourite songs still astounds me. Thank you Derek, it was really quite sweet of you, I appreciated it =)

The Semi-Formal
The semi-formal... how could words describe it... it was the best way to wind down a week ever. It's so much fun dressing up and having a fancy get-together. I wore my black backless dress with a slit that goes til mid-thigh, and boots. Obviously I had a jacket... I'm not THAT crazy =P...but yeah... Dan's talk about dressing modestly came to mind... not that he did seem to mind when we were dancing together near the end of the night XP
Yeah the dancing was great.. the guys were all so dressed up, it was so cute! And they were all being little wallflowers as well... =P... had to pull Doug and Ben in to dance, and Ben thought he looked stupid...*shakes head* you paranoid people...
Yeah, went to sleep past 12... was dead-tired the next morning -_-"

Fwaor... look at these hardcore guys... yeah... Dan in the red, Andrew and Ben in the middle looking all gangsta, Stanton striking a pose and Jono in the background

Me and Dan at the end of the night

Our table =) Andrew and Mel in front, me and Derek in the back

The People
How on EARTH can I EVER thank you all for everything, all the good times and the fun we had and getting to know you all... it was just... the best, honestly. I never ever thought I'd say that I love anyone after a week of getting to know them... but its the sad truth, I seriously love you guys =) It's been what 2 days and we're all suffering major separation anxiety XD... heck it was barely one day before we planned our first big outing!

Me and Melness =D

Mel, Chrissy, Mabel and me =)

(thankies to Mel for the photos)

The...Study?!
Well yeh...you gotta admit, that's what we were there for! And no matter how much we hated going in for study, we still managed to muck around (somewhat) in there and study does seem better when you do it with a group. Also the random chucking around of lollies... like me clocking Chris in the side of his head with a FanTale (accidentally! ><) and well... me and Mel taking turns to sleep... I think its something about that table >.>

And a few people I just HAVE to thank:

ANNA AND HAPPY: You guys were the best dorm leaders ever, seriously. Thank you for giving us the best time ever. You were seriously cool. Sorry for always keeping you up with our late-night chatter and what not. Thanks for putting up with us and for being so awesomely cool, and thank you for taking on our disgusting bathroom as well! Sorry we messed it up so much ><. You guys rock! Thank you for making me think about certain things in 1 Timothy and in life in general that I never would've thought of. I think you guys have really helped and supported me. Thank you =)

DAN: Dan, words cannot express the gratitude I have towards you. I owe you big time, man. You've made me realise A LOT of things about myself and everything I should be. You made me see everything I should be doing but am not and everything I should be looking for but am not. You've helped me see things I've always missed and you've just been so supportive. I seriously thank God for you, cos I know it's only through God that you have your strength, but you have just been such a blessing to me, and I'm sure to everyone else. You're such a great guy, and you inspire me to become a better person because I want to be a blessing to others like you have been to us. Thank you Dan, for reminding me why I'm here. And thanks for putting up with me when I'm being annoying and whiney too =P

And just to everyone in general - THANK YOU for the past week. It's been one of the best weeks of my life =)

God bless~

I've had this random tune stuck in my head most of the day. I think I made it up, and I've also had this lyric (the one in the title) going in my head as well, with a simple tune.. I've been trying to shape something around it, but can't think of anything...

Anyways... yeah, today we had a chem excursion at Sydney Uni... twas pretty boring... there was a cute looking Asian lab assistant there that looked like he belonged in an Asian soapie... so me and Alice got into a debate over who was better looking - Nikishido Ryo or Asazukin. Obviously I was the Ryo fan-girl XD. I mean, look at him...

 Hawtness <3

So yeah... debated for a while whether to go to afternoon class (Textiles/English) and that was pretty much decided when it was 2pm and we were still reading manga in Kino ^_^"

So me and Alice decided to go for some pool. I have never played pool in my life. Surprisingly I'm not actually half-assed at it... or not as bad as I would be at any rate.. I sank the first ball ^_^... but halfway through the black ball mysteriously disappeared. So we decided to just make it whoever sank all of their balls first... which she eventually did. She won by one ball. Ah well, she's had more practice than me.

But yeah... just kinda relaxing now near the end of school because I know that after the holidays I have to really get down to it and not muck around for the next few months...

I guess now that we're getting so close to the end, there's a lot of pressure on all of us. In tuition there's a girl who's alot like me - hates chem, doesn't do well, doesn't get things easily but lacks to motivation to teach herself. I think because I've been to Vu for longer, I've had more chance to improve and for my chemistry to be strengthened, but for her... she doesn't have that time... and I know how that feels, and how the pressure just gets to you and you just want it all to stop because its going too fast... like you just can't cope with that kinda shit... although I am more confident now because my theory and calculations have been improved considerably. But for her... she sees me and Esmond being able to figure out questions she can't and remember things, and just know things that she doesn't know or can't remember, and she feels really behind and gets really depressed. Her and I are really similar.
It's actually kinda funny cos she said that I seemed confident and easygoing about these exams, and that I seem smart. And I'm none of that. I just think it's interesting how people interpret someone being realistic or accepting the consequences of what they have/haven't done as being confident, when really it's just accepting the probable outcome of what will happen. Are consequences really that bad that you need to have some strong, unusual characteristic like confidence to face them? I didn't know that I carried that image across to people either... I mean... smart? I suppose that's a relative term...

Lol. HSC really makes you think =P

[ Music ] Intro AE 86.// {?}

So watched The Fast and the Furious: Tokyo Drift today with the guys... Hann, Mikael, Vince, Jerry and Peter... and it felt like I hadn't seen them for like ages... especially Vince and Jerry... the last time I saw them was like a month ago or something... I see Mikael at least once every two weeks though, cos I sit in their math lectures sometimes XD
Stoopid Jerry tried drinking out of the kettle and burnt his lip... -_-"... but that's Jerry for ya... he also got me this huge Hello Kitty soft toy =D... well actually, he got it for me when he went to China and the beginning of the year but never got around to giving it to me...so yeah ^_^

Anyways yea...watched the movie... the guys were bad, the girls were bad but DAMN the cars were fkn sexy... at the beginning of the movie I was holding out for some hot Jap girls as well as the sexy cars, but since there were none, I just concentrated all my attention on the cars and the driving. There was a character named Han in there as well XD... he was cool... I liked his attitude towards things... but he dies T_T... madass driver though. Man, I wanna be able to drive like that. And at the beginning, the drift that DK does is just...mad.
Such a pity though... the main girl lead has a pretty nice RX-8 and you only get to see it once. Oh well, there were other cooler cars in the movie. Storyline was stupid, but then again, it always is. F+F storylines are always as follows:

"Outsider" or "Rogue" has something to do --> somehow gets the mafia involved --> alot of shit with the mafia involving driving --> they settle the score in a race and the main chara comes out on top

Then again, it's not like you watch F+F for the storyline... watch for the cars man... especially since this movie had more of a focus on drifting and Asian cars... it was some mad shit watching that driving. Pretty cool stuntwork... I wanna know how to be able to do that. But after HSC...AFTER HSC... >.<

So yeah, now I want a cool car so I can learn how to drift. XD

YES!! Australia lost!!

I've been waiting for this moment ever since they qualified, and we all caught Sucke... I mean, Socceroos fever whether we wanted to or not. Over-glorified, over-inflated hype anyone? So yeah, you can all chuck out those lame Australia flags you've attached to your cars (or burn them... I know which one I'll be doing), those "Collector's Edition" medallions the Telegraph have been hocking off are now going to end up at the bottom of your nic-nac drawer, unless of course in a momentous (haha) moment in Australian football (now there's an oxymoron) we argue our way through in true Australian style by disputing every foul the ref called against us, slurring everyone who beat us and their style of play and cast doubt on the validity of every goal scored. LIke they are now. "Controversial penalty"  they say. Well apparently any goal scored against Australia is controversial.

There are girls in my grade bemoaning today as the "worst day of their life"... aw, why, what happened? Skinned your knee falling off the bandwagon? XP

Some girl called me annoying cos I was happy Australia lost. Said that they deserved to win because they had 60% possession or something. Well, you can have all the possession of the ball that you want, but if you can't put it in the back of the net, then it's quite pointless isn't it?

Today our school had a civi day themed "Green and Gold"... I pity the fools.. I came in blue and white (Italy's colours) just to make my point *nods*

Ah, passing chemistry, Australia getting knocked out of the World Cup AND getting off school at 12:40pm today, also got our jerseys today, which looks okay I guess... my week keeps getting better and better... ooh AND sushi train on Friday as well ^_^... with Hann and his bro... very much looking forward to it =D

I PASSED CHEM!!!!!!
I FKN PASSED CHEM!!!!!!!!!!

I HAVEN'T PASSED CHEM SINCE, MAYBE, BEGINNING OR HALFWAY THROUGH YEAR 11, BUT WHO CARES?

I PASSED CHEM!!!!!!

=D

[ Music ] Distance (M-Flo remix).// Utada Hikaru (remixed by M-Flo)

Ah, yet another week has passed and neglect of blog has continued... well actually I tried posting something on Saturday, but stupid BlogDrive was down or something, so it wouldn't accept the entry >.<

Anyways yeah... paid off that corset... and it can be viewed here, here and here. It was mostly Liza's idea to dress me up... she seems to love doing it, and curling my hair and shit... yeah we were bored after school, so it occupied a good few hours doing it... she did all the shots and photo-manip, I just posed XD...
Lol, she was trying out these techniques she saw on Fashion-TV where they showed how the photographers took shots of their models and the camera/lighting techniques and everything, and she was trying to experiment with makeshift filters... like her see-through plastic fluro pink clipboard. That shit was crazy man... made the whole room go red... it was like WTF Pr0N!!! but when she took it away from the light, we were seeing green, cos our eyes had adjusted to the red hue x_x... the original idea was to make me goth/rock, but after she'd done dressing me up she decided I looked too cute and I was more like a doll...kept squealing and shit, cos she thought I was so "cute" or something o.O like "OMG, you're sooooooo cute!!!!" and showed her mother and everything, going "Don't you think she's soooo pretty???"

Also bought a $40 jacket for Hann, cos he mentioned that he wanted a tan double-zip jacket...so when I went to BJ Westfield yesterday, I saw one in Giordano, called him up and asked him if he wanted it...couldn't describe the colour to him properly so I tried taking photos with mum's camera and MMS'ing them...but for some reason I couldn't figure out how to send MMS!!! ><... so in the end I just bought it, and if he doesn't like it, he can return it... if he does, he's paying me back.. at least for now... I need that money man!! Especially cos we're going sushi train this Friday to celebrate end of school...
And I was meant to be going sweater shopping for myself X_X... ai... this always happens, lol

So yeah... last week of school!! Yay!! (shut up all you Catholic/private schoolies! *shakes fist*)

Oh the bittersweet fruits of procrastination.... T_T

So today I had a legal studies exam... went shit, my hand cramped up during the exam because it was so cold in the exam hall... as such I couldn't write properly and only got about halfway through my exam as they gave us some insanely short amount of time to write it in.. I mean... 50 minutes to write an indepth evaluation of world order? Prepared or not (for once, I actually was prepared...) you're not going to be able to write that much in 50 minutes I reckon...

So yeah, finished that at 10 and went to Hann's place because I didn't feel like going home and writing my English oral (which I am procrastinating from now x_x)... stayed there from 11 - 3 just procrastinating and playing games and shit... walked to Eastgardens to eat lunch... met Ivan there, who now seems to like sneaking up behind me and surprising me XP... now me and Hann have gotten into this continous twisted version of the game "I Spy"... typically us XD.. I think I'm up by 1/4 of a point? w00t, go me, lmao...

So he finally went off to uni (he's on stu-vac and has finals starting tomorrow), and I thought.. you know...there's no harm in shopping for a bit...

So I went to check out all the sales at the usual stores (still procrastinating, mind you), when on my way to Equip, lo and behold something catches my eye in Sheike. Obviously being a boutique, they didn't have any more of the window display on the racks, so I decided to browse anyway. And something caught my eye. And I swear I had to have it. They had the size 8 and the size 6 (perfect)...tried them both on... as it figures, the 8 was too big =.= which I found EXTREMELY sad T_T... hummed and hoed for an hour as I constantly switched between the two sizes to see which one looked better, and whether I REALLY wanted it (who am I kidding, as soon as I saw it I knew I wanted it... die, impulse buying!!! *shakes fist*)

And THAT is how procrastination ended up with me having a $70 black lace bustier on lay-by at Sheike T_T

[ Music ] A Little Pain.// OLIVIA

Download the song... its a good song... its by OLIVIA, very addictive song *nods*

Anyways, yes... I am really really fucked. I have a textiles oral in about 20 minutes, I haven't even prepared my folio properly... Thank GOD I read the assessment sheet again last night before going to bed and realised that not only did I have to present my folio, but I also had to write a revised time plan for the completion of my major textiles project. This is at 12:30am... after a whole day of writing crap about materials and sticking in shit... I really don't think I have enough... my folio looks like its way too brief x_X but I can't fit any more in there.. like... literally.. everything's pushing the border already... argh, frustration...
I haven't even completed the page on maufacturing processes and techniques yet... and I realised that I needed it in the stupid exam at 1am this morning... fuckin' assessments.. hate assessments...

I have an English oral which (as always) I am fucked for.
So here's the story this time.
I have no partner because our school decides to be assinine and make 3 classes study postmodernism and two classes study crime fiction. That leaves us with odd numbers... GENIUS!! =.=... so yeah.. I only have 2 friends that do postmodernism, and they usually go with each other or with other people in their class... I've asked them to double up with me again (meaning that only my mark will be counted the second time around that they do it) but they don't wanna do that...
My other friends all do crime fiction and the rest of them don't even do English extension.
So I tell my teacher about this the week before exams. What does she say? "Just go find someone, Amanda"... don't you think I've tried?!
English Advanced exam, Head of English asks who hasn't got a partner... I put my hand up.. she puts me with that girl I got 5/15 with last time... not happy =.=...
So I go in the next day to complain.. as well as that I had heard that she was with some other girl who was really pro at English orals because they had to convince her to go with her... and Kenway (Head of English) confirms that and tells me that she'll find me someone...
English Extension written exam, she still hasn't found me someone... English orals started yesterday and end on Monday, and as of yet, I have no partner and no text... I think I'm fucked.
I honestly hate this whole group oral shit. I mean it seriously gives an advantage to all the girls who do drama and debating, and only serves to my detriment.. the fact that we've had 3 English orals has really unfairly impacted my marks... I KNOW I'm better at written tasks.... why can't they assess on strengths and not weaknesses? It's stupid... I think they should give us the option of whether we want to do a group oral or whether we want to do a separate speaking and listening task. I'd much rather that. This is really shitty.
I don't even have enough time to prepare for English... today I've got that textiles oral which I spent all yesterday preparing for... on Monday I have a legal studies essay, so I'm probably going to have to use all weekend for that... so where the fuck does my English come in? Damnit, this is why I hate being so disorganised x_X really bites you in the ass...

Anyway yeah.... =.=...

Not much else going on I guess... watched Omen 666 with Hann the other day because stoopid Mikael said it was scary... it was so not (-_-")... Even I didn't find it scary, and I get freaked easily by supernatural shit. And stoopid Mikael... thought I was Hann over MSN. I was talking to him on my account and everything, and he's like "DAMN ASS, I know its you Hann, you can't fool me!!" and I'm thinking... 'Oh the irony.... T_T'
Stoopid Mikael XP

[ Music ] Fly Me To The Moon.// Diana Krall

I'm fucked for English Extension creative writing, which is in approximately 5 minutes...

Spent the morning at Hann's place, actually doing work because I couldn't work at home cos mum was bitching about some random bullshit, so I was like.. well fuck this... and left... got quite a bit of my legal studies essay done, but still haven't completed it yet. It's really quite frustrating when you know what you wanna say, but it doesn't sound exactly right and you only have an hour to get it right and write the rest of your essay on world order, human rights and international society... ah well.. I sent it in to her anyway... Legal is on Monday, so as long as I get some feedback on what I've done so far, then I know where I'm headed and what to change etc...

I have chem tomorrow, which I actually feel kinda prepared for tonight, but I have tuition tonight as well just to make sure... and I have textiles oral on Friday, which means much frantic folio work in these next few days x_X... oh well...

This week hasn't really been the best week for me... me and Hann were fighting over the weekend about stuff... breaking promises etc... so yeah, that was pretty upsetting. That compounded by Japan's loss to the Shiteroos and mum and dad whining and bitching about random shit AND unpreparedness for exams...and probably some PMS REALLY got on my nerves >.<

Oh well exam time.. byes T_T

Broken, this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you, so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I'd let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I'd let go, but there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only my only one

Here I go, so dishonestly
Leave a note, for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I'd let go, but there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one 

Only One.// YellowCard